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Ok now I feel like I have to back up a bit: I threw my oldest Son out of my house: I had asked him to come live with me because I knew he was struggling paying his rent and other bills,so I asked him to live with me so that we could help each other out, so he comes home(with his girlfriend)(I insisted she stay in a different room.) and gets right to work on making new bills...Getting a new cell phone with 2 other people under him,(more people on a contract the less each one has to pay per phone), getting his computer in top form(upgrading),doting on her every need. She decides that she doesn't like me so she moves back home to her parents(good place for her)My son get roaming charges on his cell phone so now he hates the plan he has so he tries to get rid of it. Doesn't work. He calls the company a rip off etc. He gets another cell phone plan (remember he has 3 phones) and gets another 3 phones with the new plan thinking that he can get rid of the first plan..Well he can't without paying an arm and a leg...Well this is the reason I kicked him out.....I told him that he was out of control with his spending habits and that he was selfish and he wasn't paying me that much to stay at home considering that he never made a meal, I washed his clothes, he had the use of a land line, computer with internet, etc..I opened my mouth and called his girlfriend a B*tch (because she is manipulative and lazy and whined about doing all the cleaning)he then proceded to call me a MotherF*ckingB*tch...That is when I told him to leave...Unfortunately no one was here to see the hate in his eyes...I really thought that he was going to hurt me...So I told him that he could leave he had one week...Later he said that landlords can't through a tenant out in the winter....(I am not a landlord I am his mother) I don't know where he got the notion that it was alright to speak to me like that because I didn't teach him to treat me like that nor did I condone him treating anyone else like that...
So I have had several people tell me get a roommate so that you can better afford the house and you will have some company at the same time...I say no!! I need to deal with my situation on my own and I still have 2 other sons to think about...If I had a roommate, It would make the other 2 feel that they would have to leave...Not going to happen...They will always be welcome in my house (as long as I can help it)....

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I feel like I am going for the ride of my life right now...trying to keep up with the bills coming into the house, trying to keep the house from falling apart, and trying to keep warm. I just ordered oil and was dilivered 100 gallons, well because I need it and didn't try(because I'm new at this) to get a locked in price, I have to pay over $2.00 a gallon. Just when I thought that I was going to be OK with paying bills (ha ha). Need to find another job, one that is better paying than What I have now. I really don't like what has been happening over there lately, people have been fired left and right and those that didn't get fired quit because they don't want to stay for the crap that has been happening...not getting the hours they expect to get and when it snows we get told not to come in at all...gee I think I need to work some hours to get paid a decent wage to be able to pay for the fuel that heats my house..I asked to take my vacation time to defray the lost hours and they said no because they could not afford the payroll hours......I also have a few days of vacation that I need to take before I lose it...put in for it and was told no because too many people asked for the same time(they don't want to lose their vacation either)...I wanted to go to Canada with my mother so I asked for the time everyone else happened to want so I can't go to Canada...I'll have to try for a different week...
So much stuff so little space I will have to update again later....love you all...